/posts/ Recent content in 往日文字 on 蜉蝣生物。 Hugo -- gohugo.io zh &copy; 2021 <a href="/">J. Qian</a> Mon, 19 Oct 2020 01:31:00 +0000 /posts/75/ Mon, 19 Oct 2020 01:31:00 +0000 /posts/75/ <p>​</p> <p>最早的记忆应该是在渔政站分配给家里的一楼公寓里。南方潮湿，住在一楼，东西容易发霉，蛇虫鼠蚁也特别多。小时候怕蟑螂，就是因为厨房总是有蟑螂出没。</p> /posts/52/ Thu, 20 Feb 2020 15:17:20 +0000 /posts/52/ <p><img src="/images/once-upon-a-time-in-hollywood.png" alt="好莱坞往事"><em>好莱坞往事</em></p> <p>昆丁自己号称的封镜前的倒数第二部作品。</p> /posts/30/ Wed, 08 Jan 2020 08:33:45 +0000 /posts/30/ <p>最近也是去了亲戚家一趟，久违地摸了一下声学钢琴，发现自己的触键手感退步了很多，于是下定决心换了声学钢琴。以前一直以为现在价格较高、模拟比较仿真的电钢琴可以满足练习的需要，结果还是发现上了声学钢琴之后感觉十分不舒服，难以适应。稍微研究了一下写一篇总结。</p> /posts/35/ Wed, 11 Dec 2019 16:40:55 +0000 /posts/35/ <p>2019年完成了：</p> /posts/34/ Wed, 09 Oct 2019 02:42:34 +0000 /posts/34/ <p>昨天晚上睡觉前想起了ex曾经指责我说我在言语沟通上容易打击她的生活积极性，她受不了了于是就退出了。</p> /posts/51/ Fri, 04 Oct 2019 14:02:01 +0000 /posts/51/ <p><img src="/images/joker.png" alt="Joker"><em>小丑</em></p> <p>这部电影充分表现出了许多社会冲突是不可能得到根本解决的，因为系统本身催化了这种矛盾的发生。就好像小丑和墨瑞针锋相对的谈话一样，底层民众和精英阶层永远都不可能互相理解。精英层选择了冷漠忽略，而底层群众会选择暴乱与灭亡，因为真的已经没有什么可以失去的了。</p> /posts/31/ Fri, 27 Sep 2019 10:35:20 +0000 /posts/31/ 钢琴 大约是小学三年级，被父母领去了一个钢琴老师家里，见到了肖西平老师。第一次去家长想让老师验验这孩子的成色，看看能不能学钢琴。肖老师说，来跟我打个节拍 /posts/32/ Fri, 02 Aug 2019 13:19:03 +0000 /posts/32/ <p>昨天晚上去练了胸和三角肌，今天早上起来一片睡眼惺忪。</p> /posts/33/ Wed, 31 Jul 2019 13:04:30 +0000 /posts/33/ <p>今天工作收尾前，启动了最后一个版本生成，发觉还需要一个多小时，已经五点半了就先走了。</p> /posts/71/ Wed, 03 Apr 2019 10:17:23 +0000 /posts/71/ <p>​</p> <p><img src="/images/article-cover-weibo-lonely.png" alt="lonely cat"></p> <p>想来第一次对女孩子有好感，好像是小学五年级。那个时候身为小组长的刘MM每天都会履行组长的职责，催大家交作业。那个时候我住得离学校有点远，于是家里就让我骑自行车去上学，鉴于我六岁就会骑自行车了……Anyway，总之就是每天早上非常紧张地追赶着时钟去上学。</p> /posts/69/ Tue, 12 Feb 2019 04:47:53 +0000 /posts/69/ <blockquote> <p>贫瘠的窟洞里燃起篝火，也在繁华的灯市里守着空城。</p> </blockquote> /posts/70/ Tue, 12 Feb 2019 04:47:49 +0000 /posts/70/ <p><img src="/images/article-cover-weibo-book.png" alt="book"></p> <p>两周前，看到一则父母的微信留言：爷爷生病了。</p> /posts/17/ Thu, 31 Jan 2019 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/17/ <p>早上把2014年的同期同事送上了归国的飞机。</p> <p>2013年夏天一起欢度了西雅图最阳光的实习时光，14年一起入职，回想起来已经玩在一起，吃饭侃大山，吐槽社会不公，吐槽工作烦恼，聊艺术聊人生，五年多了，最终分别，还是会有很多舍不得。</p> /posts/16/ Tue, 04 Dec 2018 12:02:22 +0000 /posts/16/ <p>终于读完了John Carreyrou的《Bad Blood》一书。John Carreyrou是一个曾经荣获过普利策奖的记者。这本书也是将Theranos如何从一个充满朝气、形象正面的公司一步一步走向独裁和谎言的过程进行了一遍详细的剖析。</p> /posts/15/ Wed, 28 Nov 2018 11:25:50 +0000 /posts/15/ <p>周一晚上去健身房练了胸和背。长期不训练，卧推做两边25lb都要死要活的，深感羞愧。科学健身对于某一个区块的肌群来说，几乎是一个以周为单位的长期训练计划。有时候我在想，之所以难以坚持，是不是我真的就没有办法在重量训练中找到乐趣。或许这跟弹钢琴一样，需要相当一段时间的枯燥积累才能让自己感觉的自我实现。今天晚上希望可以训练肩膀和腰腹。</p> /posts/72/ Sat, 03 Nov 2018 04:50:28 +0000 /posts/72/ <p>​</p> <blockquote> <p>每当孤独，都如临大敌</p> </blockquote> <p>一直想写一些话给后辈，如鲠在喉，却又觉得十分不妥。</p> /posts/14/ Sat, 29 Sep 2018 00:15:00 +0000 /posts/14/ <p>这周只去上了二天班。老板也很懒散。在这个公司我连对自己有所要求的愿望都无法达成，实在就是那么无聊。所有同事都在偷懒，摆烂，中层管理无作为。</p> /posts/13/ Sat, 22 Sep 2018 21:58:00 +0000 /posts/13/ <p>今天早上起来感觉身体不舒服，后来就开始咳嗽起来。</p> /posts/12/ Mon, 17 Sep 2018 18:39:00 +0000 /posts/12/ <p>今天和微软Recruiter聊了一下Offer的细节，总体来说很不错，稍微谈判了一下，希望再提个5k的签约奖金，如果不行也就算了。另外一个组没有给Offer，估计是要还是第三轮发挥的实在太差了。也无所谓，大致摸清了微软给Offer的方向，没有别的更有力的compete offer的话，估计找谁都是这个水平的薪水，没什么区别。</p> /posts/11/ Fri, 14 Sep 2018 21:27:00 +0000 /posts/11/ <p>今天又去了一个微软的招聘活动。一进门就见到十几个候选人，有五、六个HR小姐姐出来把大家带进去吃了午饭。之后每个人一个房间面了四轮。题目倒是都不难，但是第三轮还是没有发挥好。好在已经无所谓了，现在只是从微软拿几个Offer的问题。</p> /posts/10/ Wed, 12 Sep 2018 22:00:00 +0000 /posts/10/ Sigma的50mm Art f/1.4镜头到了。测试完一些基本的对焦之后发现完全没有跑焦，非常开心。 十月有人约去Blue Ridge Parkway拍红叶。据说这条路上 /posts/6/ Mon, 10 Sep 2018 20:33:00 +0000 /posts/6/ <p>周一，今天要在家里签收UPS发过来的新镜头，选择了在家办公，同时也利用琐碎的时间清理掉一些年久存留的垃圾。客厅里面一直放着当时买豆子沙发时留下的纸板箱，折叠起来扔回收垃圾箱了。</p> /posts/4/ Sun, 09 Sep 2018 22:07:00 +0000 /posts/4/ <p>我希望我可以一直追着风而跑，这样的我充满信念与力量。难道这样错了吗？多年来的追逐最终让我感到有一点点累。</p> /posts/2/ Sat, 08 Sep 2018 10:50:10 +0000 /posts/2/ <p>Adagio, 柔版。一个很常见的乐谱标记，表达了一种非常经典的感情色彩。这首穿插于王家卫电影《2046》的配乐，让许多人莫名其妙，让许多人潸然泪下，也让许多人流连忘返。</p> /posts/1/ Fri, 07 Sep 2018 21:40:12 +0000 /posts/1/ 简书的帐号手机号被我意外解除了绑定，加上国内现在的规定，不允许绑定国外手机好，于是就用不了了。捣鼓了一个小时用Hexo，GitHub Page和一个不错 /posts/73/ Tue, 08 May 2018 02:41:29 +0000 /posts/73/ <p>​</p> <p>其实人内心深处是非常看重别人对自己的看法的，这是人之常情。“走自己的路，让他人去说吧”，信奉这一条的人通常表面上显得很强大，很多困难也都能够克服，但无形中也降低了其社会性，也就是对他人的依赖。如果对他人毫无以来，自然也就不会有情感投资，自然也就陷入了一种无法解释也无法发声的孤独。</p> /posts/76/ Wed, 04 Apr 2018 12:32:00 +0000 /posts/76/ <p>​ 最近深感状态比三年前差了很多。无论是在体能方面还是心态方面，都弱了好多。早上赖床起不来，有时候不吃早饭，对现今的工作感到很无聊拿不出100%的认真，加上有时候也会很没有数的错过一些会议；想要跳槽却迟迟不行动，不好好刷题；晚上刷手机打游戏控制不住，钢琴也是弹得越来越生疏；疏于管理厨房清洁、维持房间整洁，不做院子除草的活，也还没有解决屋顶的烟囱砖裂的问题。</p> <p>这样的问题还能罗列出很多细枝末节，包括许多不良的习惯，不积极的生活态度，等等。主要问题是没有办法做好时间管理，已然形成了一个恶性循环。针对这些问题，想要下定决心做一次整顿。</p> /posts/9/ Sun, 18 Feb 2018 07:10:00 +0000 /posts/9/ <h1 id="一起风了要活下去">一、起风了，要活下去</h1> <p>时隔五年，重看了这部宫崎骏吉卜力时代的收官作，感触颇多。最初我以为宫老是在说一个爱情故事，后来发现其实是一个很大的哲学命题。</p> <p>动画几乎无缝糅合了堀越二郎设计零式战斗机与堀振雄的书的剧情。拆开这几个故事看，会发现一个共同点。</p> /posts/77/ Tue, 02 Jan 2018 11:46:00 +0000 /posts/77/ <p>​</p> <p>就算说node JS里面那个event.body，就是HTTP协议里post方法里的那个body. 那个东西是个字符串是约定俗成的事。竟然有工作经验10+的开发以为那不是一个字符串，直接拿来当作对象访问它的属性，没有做任何解析，把代码commit了，之后发现有bug。</p> /posts/3/ Wed, 06 Dec 2017 14:10:00 +0000 /posts/3/ <p>搬运自个人简书</p> <p><img src="https://github.com/junleqian/HexoBlog/raw/master/assets/images/watchman.png" alt="《守望者》平装版封面 (图片来自网络)" title="《守望者》平装版封面 (图片来自网络)"></p> <p>连续一周每天抽出一点时间看完了曾经荣获《雨果奖》的漫画，《守望者》。阿兰摩尔的笔触在这类深刻探讨人性的题材上发挥得游刃有余。由于漫画的每一个篇章的最后还会穿插一个档案，或者故事中人物的自传小说，所以作为一部上世纪80年代的漫画，形式也算是非常新颖。整部漫画看下来，阅读的总量几乎可以让人无暇顾及漫画本身以及上色的细节。大量的对话，大量穿插的文字段落让人不觉感到：“这就是一部小说啊。”</p> /posts/5/ Sun, 03 Dec 2017 13:33:00 +0000 /posts/5/ <p>我估计已经断断续续练习研究这首经典曲目六个多月了，但在技术上似乎没有办法达成这首曲子原先的情感色彩。看着拉赫曼尼诺夫勾勒的那些十度和弦，无奈之余，只好收集一些小知识，记下一些难点。</p> /posts/7/ Mon, 07 Nov 2016 11:52:00 +0000 /posts/7/ <p>滑落的泪珠，从海生的脸上像剃刀一样地割落。英红的背影在夜幕里，被一盏幽幽的路灯束上了腰，身姿曼妙，却渐行渐远。她沿着车站路台的边际线直直地走向万物汇聚的一点，没有回一次头，也没有驻足半步。海生望着她，就像望着一部由底片组合成的动画。那些底片里，明明只有英红在远去，却仿佛全世界都在离他而去。</p> /posts/74/ Mon, 22 Aug 2016 05:55:53 +0000 /posts/74/ <p>​</p> <p>提起朴然这个名字，我总是会不寒而栗。本是一个儿时的玩伴，却牵扯出许多恐怖的画面来，恐怖到让时间凝结。</p> /posts/8/ Sun, 14 Aug 2016 21:05:00 +0000 /posts/8/ <p>后来我问坎贝尔，你曾几何时，是否想过退缩，从这片汪洋大海中返航，回到你肯尼亚的故乡去。他告诉我，有一天，他就在一个很普通的夜晚醒来，发现自己想要的不是星辰大海，而是一团让他快乐的篝火。如果哪一天，他找到了那团篝火，他会在那团篝火前建一个木头房子，把它油漆得五彩缤纷，把那里当做家园。</p> /posts/18/ Tue, 29 Sep 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/18/ <p>我第一次见到病号205的时候，他还是一个诗人。从他的字里行间我读到的是一种蒙太奇式的诅咒，似乎在诅咒着某些不平，发泄着未名的怨愤，因为没有办法在现实中呐喊出来，所以就过得异常压抑。终于有一天他发病了，在饭桌上胀红了脖子，然后开始发狂。他的亲人就把他送到了这家精神病院，关在病房205室，编号也是205。</p> /posts/20/ Wed, 23 Sep 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/20/ <p>全世界都悲从中来。</p> /posts/19/ Fri, 18 Sep 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/19/ <p>最近晚上工作加班，大概都要八、九点钟才回到住处。可能是因为大脑疲劳，又精神亢奋，我打开了Spotify一个播放列表叫做“Late Night Jazz”，用来安安心。随后的几周里我便迷恋上了它，希望萨克斯风和法语歌可以把脑子里盛装的浆糊全部都给倒出来。</p> /posts/renren-post-9/ Sat, 01 Aug 2015 22:50:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-9/ <p>​ 再过四十年我就65岁了。</p> /posts/21/ Wed, 27 May 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/21/ 西雅图天气的湿度让许多事情始料未及。 在水槽里积累了两个星期的剩菜和碗上面布满了小飞虫——就是那种盛夏时节夕阳西下，偶尔经过楼道前两座相映的灌木丛会遇到 /posts/renren-post-10/ Fri, 15 May 2015 02:03:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-10/ <p>​ The biggest mental problem which I have, is that I don&rsquo;t feel comfortable with talking to a girl on whom I have a crush. This is a very a typical teenager symptom. The only workaround is to play a different role, where I am not even aware that I have a crush on her. In long run, I can&rsquo;t avoid Schizophrenia.</p> /posts/renren-post-11/ Wed, 01 Apr 2015 00:10:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-11/ <p>​ 在知识社群网站搜索了不少关于自杀的讨论，主要发觉对自杀行为的负面评论有以下几点：</p> <ol> <li>自私，只顾自己。</li> <li>不负责任，很多事情没有处理好就撒手人寰了。</li> <li>一时冲动，死前多半会后悔。</li> <li>自杀行为想当然，没死成造成了误杀意外，或者变成残疾人的自杀者比比皆是。</li> </ol> /posts/23/ Thu, 12 Mar 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/23/ <p>一点秘密，一点宣泄。</p> /posts/22/ Sun, 01 Mar 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/22/ <p>我在十几岁的时候看过一个国内漫画家的自传漫画，说他二十五岁的时候正在深圳读国际贸易硕士，十分浮躁恐慌，觉得读书百无聊赖，身无长物也不知道自己以后要做什么。而二十五岁还不知道自己做什么是很让人着急的，他当时这么想着，同时手上又拥有着一些漫画的天赋。一次偶尔的发现，他找到了国内始祖级别的漫画杂志，叫做《漫画大师》，让他找到了人生的灵感，从此全心全意投入了漫画行业，非常辛苦，最后出了单行本。</p> /posts/24/ Wed, 25 Feb 2015 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/24/ <p>上一次见到曲云，是半年以前。那个时候我还在校园里面，度过最后一个慵懒的夏天。</p> /posts/25/ Sat, 06 Dec 2014 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/25/ <p>就像灰姑娘的水晶鞋，到了午夜十二点，一切都会从美好的童话变回真相。</p> /posts/26/ Fri, 28 Nov 2014 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/26/ <p>昨天晚上打游戏打到了将近凌晨两点，突然感到十分落寞。</p> /posts/27/ Thu, 20 Nov 2014 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/27/ <p>我不时地会看Milton Friedman的演讲和回答学生的话，那些精彩的关于自由市场和社会主义的理论与驳斥，都让人可以感觉到这个老人说散发出来的智慧魅力。</p> /posts/renren-post-1/ Fri, 17 Oct 2014 00:33:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-1/ <p>​</p> <p>“另外告诉你一个消息，钢琴老师肖老师前几年已经走了，永远离开了这个世界。”</p> /posts/renren-post-2/ Mon, 22 Sep 2014 22:49:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-2/ <p>​</p> <p>从大三开始我就开始听美国人爱听的那些口水歌。喧闹嘈杂歌词毫无内涵。但是就是想听，不知道为什么。翻了翻早先的歌单，前五首是信乐团的离歌、阿桑的叶子、信乐团的假如、曹格的寂寞先生和林宥嘉的想自由。好像是有一次在朋友的车里面接上了音频线开始播放，车上的人都觉得歌曲压抑悲伤，强烈要求换歌缓和气氛。</p> /posts/renren-post-3/ Fri, 25 Jul 2014 00:01:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-3/ <p>​</p> <p><img src="/images/tokyo-ghoul.jpg" alt="Tokyo Ghoul"></p> <p>这几天西雅图的美好夏天早已经早早过去，接下来要进入长期的阴云天气，直到明年的夏天。</p> /posts/renren-post-12/ Tue, 22 Jul 2014 01:08:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-12/ <p>​</p> <p>Where are the girls</p> /posts/renren-post-13/ Wed, 16 Jul 2014 08:40:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-13/ <p>​</p> <p>电梯上下</p> /posts/renren-post-14/ Mon, 14 Jul 2014 20:24:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-14/ <p>​</p> <p>不说再见的人，是因为一说再见，泪水会像江水一般倾涌。</p> /posts/renren-post-15/ Fri, 11 Jul 2014 01:01:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-15/ <p>​</p> <p>本科毕业后的一年半，大部分时间都在学校，却仿佛飘着一样，精神上有些居无定所，经过时让人觉得过得太慢，结束时却让我感到这日子过得太快，快要快到来不及感慨。</p> /posts/renren-post-4/ Wed, 25 Jun 2014 13:31:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-4/ <p>​ 你也知道的，我们606公寓的电梯总坏，只要遇到狂风暴雨，它就只能停在P层停车库不动了。过几天总会有一个光头电梯维修员，拿出个笔记本电脑看着停留在某一层的电梯，简直就像是在debug一样。</p> /posts/renren-post-16/ Wed, 25 Jun 2014 08:11:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-16/ <p>​</p> <p>以前有一个姑娘，我追求了很久，但是就是不准我和她在一起。后来我喝醉过，忧郁过，心中盘旋的无非就是那么几个问题：</p> <p>为什么她不愿意接受我？她不是一个人吗？她不孤独吗？</p> /posts/renren-post-5/ Thu, 19 Jun 2014 22:05:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-5/ <p>​</p> <p>下雨了。</p> /posts/renren-post-6/ Sat, 24 May 2014 22:42:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-6/ ​ 这六年来，我没有写过一本完整的小说。我写过许多日志，还有断断续续的章节，有些开头十分引人入胜，或者说纯粹是为了吸引人而那样写，之后的剧情完全没有考虑 /posts/renren-post-17/ Tue, 06 May 2014 18:04:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-17/ <p>​</p> <p>阿尔法君那天告诉我，他把一个女孩的微信、人人以及微博所有的社交网络全部都拉黑了，我问为什么，他说他觉得自己被玩弄的很悲惨，花了钱，也花了时间，什么也没有得到。我说，并不是这么一回事呀，你至少认识了一种你从未曾见过的人，这是宝贵的。你为什么会这么害怕呢，她又不会吃了你，而且她应该也不会回来联系你了吧。恐怕是你对她回心转意还报以独特的幻想吧。不过这样也好，至少你的新生活开始啦。只是阿尔法君啊，我跟你说，做这种事的时候，要留后路，千万不要反反复复，一直活在后悔中。</p> /posts/renren-post-18/ Wed, 23 Apr 2014 07:56:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-18/ <p>​</p> <p>那天想要看欧冠，上去firstrowsports.eu，发现只有一个英语源可以看，但是提示要下载插件。本来从来都不会去装的，但是那天手贱还是装了。</p> /posts/28/ Tue, 15 Apr 2014 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/28/ 惨，惨，惨。 晚上房间太热，于是就开了窗，但是灯光招来了虫子，苍蝇在我的房间里面不愿离开。因为我在黑夜中面对着屏幕，它也来看我在写什么，有时候停在我的头 /posts/renren-post-7/ Mon, 14 Apr 2014 11:14:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-7/ <p>​</p> <p>最近的状态十分不稳定，十分自怨自艾。</p> /posts/renren-post-19/ Thu, 10 Apr 2014 18:00:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-19/ <p>​</p> <p>最近看到一个数字，就是美国移民局收到了17.25万份H1B工作签证许可的申请，名额是六万五千份，于是就会与往年一样要抽签，保留了两万个名额给硕士及以上学位的人，接下来就要进行首轮抽签。粗略估计一下，在不多不少刚好有两万硕士或博士的情况下，他们全部都能抽到H1B，剩下的本科生是15.25万人，一个粗略的估计就是被抽中的概率是40%左右，而笔者并不了解所谓硕博的申请人数相较于开放的名额来说是多是少，也就是说如果硕博生在首轮抽签中没有抽中，还会参加普抽，也就是说本科生的抽中概率甚至会在40%以下，最低大概是37%。</p> /posts/29/ Tue, 01 Apr 2014 22:46:16 +0000 /posts/29/ <p><img src="/images/violin-sonata.png" alt="Violin Sonata No.2 in D Op.94a"></p> <p>自上周起听了三四遍普罗科菲耶夫这首第二号小提琴奏鸣曲。我很喜欢这个开头，开头前八个小节小提琴的部分瞬间把人带入一种悲伤情怀。然后又感到进入一种脱世的优雅，再急转进入一段较快的，带着一点点的优柔和纠结，难以捉摸，转瞬即逝。第一乐章中板十分纾缓，开头的旋律片段式地出现，好像一个闺中少女对情郎念念不忘，也好像一个饱经风霜的人唤起的美好过往的回忆。伴随着钢琴部分不断丰富起来的质感，小提琴部分的抑扬和变调，点出了曲中的许多小高潮。听完后主旋律回旋在我的脑中久久不能忘记。钢琴部分柔软轻盈富有弹性，作为伴奏，音量轻，能够不失其丰富性与清晰度也是一种专业素养。</p> /posts/renren-post-20/ Wed, 19 Mar 2014 04:22:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-20/ <p>​</p> <p>昨天中午吃了Panera的asiago steak sandwich，晚上带lab没有吃饭，回来吃个10个腰果就睡了。</p> /posts/renren-post-21/ Mon, 10 Mar 2014 21:15:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-21/ <p>​ </p> <p>“看，有灰机，在天上灰。”</p> /posts/renren-post-23/ Mon, 10 Mar 2014 14:24:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-23/ <p>​   把OPT申请确认表交给Engineering Hall的大婶婆的时候心中有一点小小的震颤。</p> /posts/renren-post-24/ Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:05:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-24/ <p>​</p> <p>安静，安静，安静。</p> /posts/renren-post-22/ Tue, 18 Feb 2014 15:24:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-22/ <p>​   我望着她裸露的背。</p> /posts/renren-post-25/ Tue, 18 Feb 2014 13:23:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-25/ <p>​   于是我把船摇到了湖中央。</p> /posts/renren-post-26/ Mon, 17 Feb 2014 23:58:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-26/ <p>​</p> <p>我爬到绿皮火车的顶上，站直了身子，对着对过正要上火车的云姐大喊：</p> <p>”云姐——！你可要快点回来哇——！”</p> /posts/renren-post-8/ Thu, 13 Feb 2014 08:27:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-8/ <p>​</p> <p>MUS 160 Jazz Piano 参考书，The Jazz Piano Book， By Mark Levine， 现售 <em>15</em>刀</p> /posts/renren-post-27/ Wed, 05 Feb 2014 19:26:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-27/ <p>​</p> <p>那天施宇葳用玩具手枪，塞了BB弹打我。</p> /posts/renren-post-28/ Tue, 28 Jan 2014 03:28:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-28/ <p>​</p> <p>I used to love two.</p> /posts/renren-post-29/ Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:03:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-29/ <p>​ 事情让人有一种错综复杂的感受。有时候会觉得耳目一新，有时候就觉得异常陈旧，完全和我没有关系。故事的格调在把真人姓名换成日本名字，之后得到了显著提升。人物与我的关系，时间线，大致都篡改了，不想让人猜出是谁。以前听到过一句话，人是不会变的，但是人心会变，如今觉得，果不其然。</p> /posts/renren-post-30/ Fri, 17 Jan 2014 01:28:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-30/ <p>​</p> <p>今天去了乌镇。上一次去过乌镇，是在还没有记事的时候，早就不记得是怎么回事了。</p> /posts/renren-post-32/ Fri, 10 Jan 2014 17:32:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-32/ <p>​</p> <blockquote> <p>Thank you for your <a href="http://links.whitehouse.gov/track?type=click&amp;enid=ZWFzPTEmbWFpbGluZ2lkPTIwMTQwMTExLjI3MzczNTcxJm1lc3NhZ2VpZD1NREItUFJELUJVTC0yMDE0MDExMS4yNzM3MzU3MSZkYXRhYmFzZWlkPTEwMDEmc2VyaWFsPTE3MDAwNDQxJmVtYWlsaWQ9Y2FsZWJxaWFuLnVpdWNAZ21haWwuY29tJnVzZXJpZD1jYWxlYnFpYW4udWl1Y0BnbWFpbC5jb20mZmw9JmV4dHJhPU11bHRpdmFyaWF0ZUlkPSYmJg==&amp;&amp;&amp;100&amp;&amp;&amp;https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/response/what-we-have-say-about-jimmy-kimmel?utm_source=wethepeople&amp;utm_medium=email&amp;utm_content=kimmel-response">petition</a>.</p> <p>Your petition requested an apology from those involved, and to &ldquo;cut the show.&rdquo;</p> <p>The parties involved have already apologized independently. Jimmy Kimmel has apologized on-air, and issued a written apology. ABC has removed the skit from future broadcasts, taken the clip down from online platforms, and detailed several changes in its programming review process in response to this incident. &gt;You can find more about <a href="http://links.whitehouse.gov/track?type=click&amp;enid=ZWFzPTEmbWFpbGluZ2lkPTIwMTQwMTExLjI3MzczNTcxJm1lc3NhZ2VpZD1NREItUFJELUJVTC0yMDE0MDExMS4yNzM3MzU3MSZkYXRhYmFzZWlkPTEwMDEmc2VyaWFsPTE3MDAwNDQxJmVtYWlsaWQ9Y2FsZWJxaWFuLnVpdWNAZ21haWwuY29tJnVzZXJpZD1jYWxlYnFpYW4udWl1Y0BnbWFpbC5jb20mZmw9JmV4dHJhPU11bHRpdmFyaWF0ZUlkPSYmJg==&amp;&amp;&amp;100&amp;&amp;&amp;https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/response/what-we-have-say-about-jimmy-kimmel?utm_source=wethepeople&amp;utm_medium=email&amp;utm_content=kimmel-response">Jimmy Kimmel&rsquo;s apology here</a>, and ABC&rsquo;s apology <a href="http://links.whitehouse.gov/track?type=click&amp;enid=ZWFzPTEmbWFpbGluZ2lkPTIwMTQwMTExLjI3MzczNTcxJm1lc3NhZ2VpZD1NREItUFJELUJVTC0yMDE0MDExMS4yNzM3MzU3MSZkYXRhYmFzZWlkPTEwMDEmc2VyaWFsPTE3MDAwNDQxJmVtYWlsaWQ9Y2FsZWJxaWFuLnVpdWNAZ21haWwuY29tJnVzZXJpZD1jYWxlYnFpYW4udWl1Y0BnbWFpbC5jb20mZmw9JmV4dHJhPU11bHRpdmFyaWF0ZUlkPSYmJg==&amp;&amp;&amp;100&amp;&amp;&amp;https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/response/what-we-have-say-about-jimmy-kimmel?utm_source=wethepeople&amp;utm_medium=email&amp;utm_content=kimmel-response">here</a>.   On a broader level, as the President has stated publicly, the United States welcomes the continuing peaceful rise of China. The comments you are writing about do not reflect mainstream views of China in the United States.</p> <p>The Federal government cannot force ABC to remove this show. The First Amendment of the Constitution protects free speech, even if individuals might personally find it offensive or distasteful. It may be upsetting when people say things we might personally disagree with, but the principle of protected free speech is an important part of who we are as a nation.</p> <p>If you think this issue merits additional scrutiny, you may file a complaint with the Federal Communications Commission by visiting <a href="http://links.whitehouse.gov/track?type=click&amp;enid=ZWFzPTEmbWFpbGluZ2lkPTIwMTQwMTExLjI3MzczNTcxJm1lc3NhZ2VpZD1NREItUFJELUJVTC0yMDE0MDExMS4yNzM3MzU3MSZkYXRhYmFzZWlkPTEwMDEmc2VyaWFsPTE3MDAwNDQxJmVtYWlsaWQ9Y2FsZWJxaWFuLnVpdWNAZ21haWwuY29tJnVzZXJpZD1jYWxlYnFpYW4udWl1Y0BnbWFpbC5jb20mZmw9JmV4dHJhPU11bHRpdmFyaWF0ZUlkPSYmJg==&amp;&amp;&amp;101&amp;&amp;&amp;http://www.fcc.gov/complaints">FCC.gov/Complaints</a> . The FCC is an independent agency that regulates the airwaves without input or consideration from the White House.</p> </blockquote> /posts/renren-post-31/ Fri, 10 Jan 2014 09:05:00 +0000 /posts/renren-post-31/ <p>​</p> <p>这次回国第一个感受就是，冷。</p> /posts/50/ Thu, 18 Oct 2012 17:02:00 -0800 /posts/50/ <p>8月2日，爺爺一如既往地在早上6點起了床，打開收音機，開始用半聾的耳朵仔細聆聽《東廣早新聞》。他聚精會神地聽了5分鐘以後，開始做起了早操。這是他一天的開始，從很久以前就開始了，一成不變。他還有另外一個習慣，就是每天記日記，記錄一天所發生的事，哪怕再平淡也好，他多少都會記一些。他總是會在晚上11點左右的時候再昏黃的檯燈下用漂亮的繁體字寫上一段雞毛蒜皮的小事，這樣的日記本用橡皮繩捆扎起來，已經積累了十幾打。從1970年就開始了嗎？也許更早，只是文革之前的部份都隨著時代的瘋狂淹沒了。</p> /posts/49/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 17:02:00 -0800 /posts/49/ 他不知道自己拉住了什么东西，只觉得一开始需要很用力，但仿佛这东西的另一头突然松了手，他惯性地，在浓稠的血河里向后退去。然后他听见了，好像浴缸里活塞被拔 /posts/68/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 09:55:00 -0800 /posts/68/ <p>At last, it came to the end of the thanksgiving holiday. I would go back tonight to the dorm, which is far away from John&rsquo;s family. I want say, I was really happy during this period.</p> /posts/48/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 17:17:00 -0800 /posts/48/ “唉，你没有留下那个女孩子的身份证、驾照什么的？” “唉，抢包就抢包，还管那么多干什么！” “不是啊，我想，我们以后乐队红了以后，赚了钱，可以补偿人家？” /posts/67/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 16:02:00 -0800 /posts/67/ <p>This morning I got up very late at almost 10.30. I never did this before. I think there is a kind of magic causing you to change your time table without awareness. This afternoon I was dizzy and chatting with Bibby&rsquo;s past girlfriend. She said Bibby now was really popular in the college. A girl even wanted to have something with him&hellip; Well, I know he is a really good man and he still fell in love with his past girlfriend. He loved her so much that he couldn&rsquo;t make himself believe that was just a game. He paid the true heart to her. And he still has the chance to get her back probably.</p> /posts/66/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 07:30:00 -0800 /posts/66/ <p>I went to John&rsquo;s house on Thanksgiving. I just wanted to experience a true thanksgiving from the reality but not the English textbook.</p> /posts/65/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 06:53:00 -0800 /posts/65/ <p>I have bought the camera Powershot of the brand Cannon. It totally cost me 194 dollars including the tax and the SD card. The is a rare cheap one. And the SD card, whose capacity is 4GB , just cost 10 dollars! It is a 10MP camera and I think the appearance of Powershot is pretty cool,silver shell, like a spaceship in your hand.</p> /posts/47/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 15:53:00 -0800 /posts/47/ 姚西铭坐在驾驶座上，看了看时间。现在是凌晨1点多。他开着货车在外环路上周旋徘徊。他根本就不知道自己要去哪里，只是一直绕圈子，一遍又一遍。也许他是喜欢货 /posts/46/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 15:32:00 -0800 /posts/46/ 他突然发现自己行走在一个怪异的世界里。这是一条望不到尽头的走廊，很宽阔，他不停地迈动双脚，朝着有亮光的地方走去。走廊的墙纸已经开始剥落，他这才发现自己 /posts/64/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 15:27:00 -0800 /posts/64/ <p>终于，整个故事架构整齐了。这是一个十分诡异的故事，十分诡异。它没有特别的意义，它仅仅是表达了《琴人》所不能表达的事情,它仅仅是我要完成《琴人》的一个承诺。 它的名字叫做《琴无所依》。</p> /posts/63/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 17:30:00 -0800 /posts/63/ <p>I am sorry. I have to stop my diary for a period. I want to get in cramming for top university. I know who I am and how could I destine myself. I am sorry to everyone who wants to know me, understand me and look for me, I am sorry I have things more important to do.</p> /posts/62/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 14:23:00 -0800 /posts/62/ <p>My meal plan met its end and the biggest problem is I am facing starvation. Really? Of course impossible, how can a man just let himself get starved? I still have some money to buy food. One month left, I think it is not a very annoying stuff, at least not more than the courses selection and make various payments. Oh, Jesus Christ, nothing&hellip;</p> /posts/60/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 17:57:00 -0800 /posts/60/ <p>These days I feel weird. Sometimes I feel tired and want to sleep.But I am always waken up by some excitement when I have already lied on the bed. Maybe I need something like a doll or a warm bath to give me a little comfort to fall asleep.</p> /posts/61/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 10:48:00 -0800 /posts/61/ <p>All the words from the movie. It has already been forbidden by Chinese government because of its aggressive tend against the government:</p> /posts/59/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 18:45:00 -0800 /posts/59/ <p>Yesterday I didn&rsquo;t feel good. A guy in my high school just killed himself on 11th. I didn&rsquo;t know how and why he killed himself. And I didn&rsquo;t know this guy before. I just felt that suicide did come to this school. After all, the suicide did come.</p> /posts/58/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 16:26:00 -0800 /posts/58/ <p>Today I have done a bunch of important things by myself. I feel satisfied by myself.</p> /posts/57/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 08:14:00 -0800 /posts/57/ <p>Yes, yes, the books of SAT have all been here, and there are not any more excuses to let me avoid practicing or stopping playing. I am not convinced I need a lot of cramming but I really need to remind myself that the days turn to be different, now it is the time to turn the destiny over.This is your blood, your land, your right, no one can stop you but yourself.That is what I am saying, fight and no joke.</p> /posts/56/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 12:02:00 -0800 /posts/56/ <p>This morning I was watching a TV series called . Then I read a little part of the book American Tragedy. Suddenly I received a email from cousin Xin, and it posted the new baby &rsquo;s photo. Today is a good day for giving birth. Welcome to the world, my nephew.</p> /posts/55/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 10:27:00 -0800 /posts/55/ <p>Yesterday night I watched the game between Houston Rockets and Portland. Such a stupid team performed such a stupid fault at such a stupid time! I have to say, they played hard, but not well, I didn&rsquo;t know what they were thinking about! I mean, Roy shot that 3, that was almost impossible, why let him shoot so easily? Where is Ron Artest? Where is T-mac? Where is Shane Battier? Oh, he is injured&hellip;</p> /posts/54/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 07:26:00 -0800 /posts/54/ <p>What the fuck?</p> <p>The address is 1983 E 24th St, but the express company sent the package to Viking Hall without checking the Street number actually! I want to make complaints! Because of their nice help, I have to take it in another building and most importantly if it reached that place 3 days ago and I didn&rsquo;t take it, it will be sent back! And that awesome stuff will take me 1 more week again. 1 more week?! What the fuck? I already have little time to review SAT and ACT, now you tell me it will be delayed 1 more week because of express mistake? Ridiculous, gentlemen, ridiculous!</p> /posts/53/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 10:57:00 -0800 /posts/53/ <p>Today Dan asked if Taiwan is a country. I thought he just didn&rsquo;t know much about China, not trying an attack in politics. Of course the problem between Taiwan and mainland is complex and annoying to all Chinese people.The only thing I care and I can tell is we speak the same language, has the same hair color, same skin color and similar bodies. That&rsquo;s why I don&rsquo;t care whether Taiwan is a country or not.That&rsquo;s why we are all Chinese people.Because you can change your nationality, change your hair color or culture, but you can never deny your own blood of your own nation.African American are always African American, if Taiwan become a country someday, if such a pity happened, the citizens on the island are always Chinese Taiwanese. That&rsquo;s what I am saying.No joke.And I hope everything will be ended in peace , not a war.I hope The world will never be noisy because of profits and lands.I wish what I am wishing though perhaps it is something will happen 800 hundred years later.So, I don&rsquo;t care now,I just hope.</p> /posts/43/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 14:20:00 -0800 /posts/43/ <p>Yes, the 1st semester is going to the hell! Next Tuesday there will be no classes because of a fantastic festival which I don&rsquo;t why it will be there. But it is a really awesome thing ,right? The week after the next week , it will be the last chemical experiment class. And the winter vocation is waving hands to me! SAT, ACT, TOFEL and even MIT are waving hands towards me!</p> /posts/42/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 08:16:00 -0800 /posts/42/ <p>I am so glad I am busy again. I have 3 classes today, have to do the laundry, read 3 textbooks detailedly, have to do exercises for them, have to prepare the lab outline for the new experiment tomorrow, have to prepare ACT exam and have to make Java notes by reviewing the book.</p> /posts/41/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 10:57:00 -0800 /posts/41/ <p>I just came back from the church. I was playing the piano for them, but the pity is , no countries for pianists. You know why? Because we are just entertainments, cheap entertainments. You are nothing without an aura from perfect advocation, which makes you fascinating and attractive.</p> /posts/40/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 03:51:00 -0800 /posts/40/ <p>Today is 2nd, Nov. Yesterday I got a phone call telling that the time would be changed to daylight saving time. What is that? Daylight saving time is a modification to time zone set for saving daylight energy. The sun rises from the horizon later and the sunset comes later.So the clock have to go slower for people to use the daylight energy much more reasonably.</p> /posts/39/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 11:48:00 -0700 /posts/39/ <p>Click on the photo to zoom in the photo. This is a transcript of Mid-term exams. And my Java programming class is also an A, which is not displayed here.</p> /posts/38/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 08:07:00 -0700 /posts/38/ <p>I have never experienced Halloween before in China. In my childhood I thought it was a very strange festival. I still remeber the feeling when I sat before the TV to watch the movies from Disney of themes of Halloween. It sounds scary, but exactly not scary at all. Actually it is funny. Today I saw a bunch of people wearing a high and large hat , a skull mask, or other weird decorations. They walked on the street, say hello to each other and praise the decorations on their clothes and hair. Also, there are some Americans choose not to celebrate Halloween.</p> /posts/37/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 15:32:00 -0700 /posts/37/ <p>I don&rsquo;t know why I feel a little tired.</p> /posts/36/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 07:57:00 -0700 /posts/36/ <p>I arrived here two months ago. I was busy in that period, busy doing something I have to do. Now I think I have a little time spare so that I can write down my diary at last. &ldquo;At last, my arm is complete again.&rdquo; This was what Sweeney Todd said, which is very similar to my situation. However, I will never use a pen to write down the blood from my heart any more. Writing with a pen feels like destroying myself. I don&rsquo;t want that way, too hurt, too blue.</p> /posts/45/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 09:45:26 +0000 /posts/45/ <p>今天跟几个中国朋友坐在一起聊天，提到教会和很多笑翻全桌的事情。</p> /posts/44/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 10:39:03 +0000 /posts/44/ <p>中秋节那一天，两地都没有月亮。那边台风暴雨，这边乌云密布。一下子，把劳动人民的二十四节气规律打破了。而今天，那轮月亮出现在窗外，明亮无比，缺了一块，像月的长睫毛盖住了眼白一般的静谧。这月亮没有朗照，地上万家灯火，却掩盖不了沉默的黑暗。</p>